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Monday, 06 July 2009

  • and in health...

    Well, I had a nice entry all written out and was literally about to hit “Submit,” but my computer battery died and instead of preserving the memory like it was supposed to by going to sleep it simply turned off and lost what I had. I’ll try again.
    I’ve had a dreadful infection for a few days, which has waxed and waned in severity and caused a couple of very uncomfortable, sleep-deprived nights. This morning was really awful. I am doing much better now, though, thanks to Matthew and medication. Matt has taken such good care of me. Great love is not only about flowers and love notes and kisses and romantic meals and great times in the bedroom and working sanely through disagreements. It also shows itself when the loving one tenderly cares for the partner when she is at her weakest and most helpless. Matt was there to hold me when I was in pain and was quick to bring me whatever I needed. He made runs to Walmart at midnight and five in the morning and this morning he took me to get my prescription. (The infection got bad late Friday. I had to wait the whole weekend to get a prescription written. Most unpleasant.) Matt has been so sweet to me the whole time. Seriously, he has been like the hands of Jesus to me. From his soulful, sympathetic eyes to his gentle hands he has been nothing but helpful, kind and praiseworthy. I wish there was something amazing I could do right now at this minute to let him know how very thankful I am for him. I sure plan to do things later to make him happy, but for now, all I can offer are three words. I mean them from the bottom of my grateful little heart: Thank you, Matthew!

Sunday, 05 July 2009

  • Rings n' Things

    I said I would post some pictures of our wooden wedding bands, so here they are. Actually, that's only half true: These are only my two. (We each got two rings made because we couldn't decide and they were inexpensive.) I haven't photographed Matt's two very well yet because when I took these photos he was at work, wearing one of them, and I have no idea where he keeps the other.
    We got them made by our friend who owns this site: http://www.mnmwoodworks.com/
    Here are both of my wooden wedding rings together:

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    Here is what each ring looks like on my hand.
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    The clear finish isn't as perfect as when we got them- my koa wood ring (the more golden of the two) is especially showing some wear. My bloodwood ring (the reddish one, obviously) appears to be holding up better. Maybe we'll get wooden ones again when these wear out and maybe not. It isn't important to me to have only one special ring, as long as I have something to put on my ring finger when I go out. They exist simply to denote to whomever I may meet that I'm married, and I wouldn't even worry about that too much except that Matt and I are going into professions where it's an important thing for people to know without having to be told. He already works in a psych hospital, but since he's working with kids it's less important at the moment. When we're in counseling, though, it will be an important reminder to clients. Of course, it may not help matters at all. Although my psychologist dad keeps pictures of his family in his office where his clients can see them every time they are in session with him, every so often a patient of his falls in love with him. The most recent time that I know of, she was really a basket case. It got so bad he said he wouldn't see her without her husband there for the session, but she refused that, and refused when he referred her to other (female) counselors. So he had to terminate counseling, of course, and she stalked him at his office, and stalked the family at the house, and did all sorts of ridiculous stuff. Eventually she gave up. I wonder if her husband finally won her over?

    Then there's Dr. B, a professor at the college where Matt and I attend. He has done counseling and psychotherapy for many years and is a good friend of my father. He tells one story of a lady client who decided she wanted to seduce him. Every time she came to the office, she wore a more revealing outfit, to the point of being humorously, sadly ridiculous. The receptionist would let him know she had arrived by simply telling him, "She's heeeeeere!"

    Anyway, random stuff. I'm doing laundry right now and it's taking SO long!



Wednesday, 01 July 2009

  • Aimless Musings Today

    I'm at work right now. A young teacher is laminating posters. Someone else is using a computer. It's peaceful here. The wind is whipping the trees outside rather violently. Daylilies have been blooming along the roads, splashing the verdant weeds with golden orange. Clouds come and go.
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    Yesterday as the sun was going down I went running through the woods, got creeped out, ran on the track for a few loops, and walked most of the way home to cool down. I've never had such a happy summer before. I am deeply soothed by the company of Matt. In many ways, life is beautiful, new and exciting, or cozy, sweet and comforting. Of course, there are sad things, like how both of my grandfathers are not feeling well at all, one suffering from terrible arthritis and the other having just started chemotherapy for bladder cancer.

    I don't know what my point is. This is a random entry with random details from my life and not much aim. Not much is going on. Now I'm off work and getting ready to go home.

    It's a good thing I'm not attempting to blog to attract a lot of traffic because my posts aren't terribly unique, specialized, or well-crafted. Many people have just one subject they always blog about or have some related topics. Of course, these sites sometimes may get a lot more hits than a personal blog because when people are looking for information on something specific (especially if it is very specialized) these blogs can be a good source of interesting info or perspective. Some people even make money with blogging. All of that is awesome for them. Still, I've been an active blogger for over five years and have even stuck faithfully with this one account the whole time. What keeps bringing me back? Part of it is the slowly-shifting community, perhaps knowing that a few people who are no longer complete strangers, just a few, read my words. Of course, my addiction to writing for the fun of it brings me back. I wonder if I'd still write if absolutely nobody read. Quite possibly, as I kept paper journals for years before blogging. However, I'm grateful that people do read. It's nice not to be quite alone. (Even if nobody else read, I think Matt would.)
    Anyway, those are my scattered thoughts today. Blessings!

Friday, 26 June 2009

  • Cuddling

    I love cuddling. It is a highly enjoyable activity. Today, Matt finished up the leftover lasagna and had only about twenty minutes until he had to leave for work. So, how did we decide to spend those few minutes?
    Curled up on the couch together, holding one another. We were as snug as two happy kitties at rest. There's something so sweet about being in the arms of the one you love. We snuggled close and just talked, nuzzled and existed. Nothing else is needed. I lay still, wrapped in his warmth, soothed by the gentle rhythms of his heart and breathing.  The world outside might be falling to bits, but here, in our little sanctuary, all is well.

Tuesday, 23 June 2009